Thursday, September 9, 2021

Drowning

I am overwhelmed. 

    I am exhausted. 

I am burning the candle at both ends. 

    I am an emotional train wreck. 

I feel defeated. 


How do I continue to move forward when everything just seems to be dragging me down...

Down. 

        Down. 

                Down. 

                        Small moments of light. 

                Happy, bright seconds. 

       Passing in a hurry. 

Almost forgotten before they're over...

because they've asked me to just take care of one more thing. 


i CAN'T handle ONE more THING!


And now this is broken. 

And now this needs tending. 

Show up here. Do this. Be there. Fix that. 


more. More. MORE.


I want to SCREAM.


I will sit still. I will be quiet. I will lay down my head.


I will get up and take 

    one 

        small 

            step 

at a time. 


Don't look too far ahead, or too far to the side - only at what is right here in front of me, 

    in this moment.

One small step at a time. One crisis at a time. One need at a time.  

Half a second. Half a millisecond. 


One moment at a time.


Don't give in to despair. Keep your head up. 

Keep swimming. 

    Keep floating. 

        Don't go under.


Hold on to hope

Stay afloat.